A Benign Psychosis?
First published in NZAP Forum: The Journal of the New Zealand Association
Recently I read in the poetry annual Fulcrum the poet Fred d’Aguiar’s notes on his work with a poet/patient whose ability to articulate the anguish of her inner world was not sufficient to prevent her suicide. He describes this unhappy outcome as ‘not a failure of her self, or her artistic abilities, but a failure of utterance itself when deployed in difficult psychological terrain. Writing herself back to health held a limited purchase for her and her troubled psyche’. He concludes with regret that ‘had she lived, she would have continued to write and perhaps written some lasting poems, but not a line of it would have mended her mind’.
Poetry is creative art. All creative writing is not poetry. Unmediated utterance is not poetry. Words can release emotion but mere expression cannot mend. However working on the refinements of that utterance does improve the mind’s suppleness and self-discipline.
In contrast to the impulse to write, the art of poetry demands skill and a quiet mind to listen to cadence and metre and all the useful combinatory abilities of words. It is work requiring clarity and alertness and balance. For some people this skill may be impossible to attain. Poetry often deals with fleeing words and brilliant images too rapid and exquisite to catch. A mind needs a certain toughness to engage with language.
D’Aguiar suggests a failing of utterance itself. I would say that in this case language could express but not heal his patient’s grief.
It seems to me that language works hardest at the limits of utterance. At an extreme, in contact with a chaotic outside world, language shows the strain and can appear to disintegrate entirely. Early twentieth century European literature responded to the psychological damage of world war with Dada, Surrealism and the Absurd. The Orator in Eugene Ionesco’s play The Chairs is reduced to incomprehensible mumbling; a German artist’s wartime self-portrait in the Berlin Museum reveals him freaked out, frozen, his brush lifted off the canvas, staring at himself.
When I draw or write I am aware of a superconducted flow from outer to inner; inner to outer world. Line is a direct and fluent language which bypasses words. Colour also is a language, and music. The expressive languages are naturally interrelated. In this early 1980s poem I’m not expecting anything from the language beyond that it be fluent and pleasant to use, reminding myself of alternative creative languages at my disposal, such as drawing and music. To express the effect of the outer on the inner world always augments my joy in it.
From ‘Words Fail Me’:
A poem is a satisfying end product but not a reason for writing. Sitting on that hill I was practising, in private, my absorbing art of words and ideas, aware of being both a part of, and apart from, my harmonious surroundings.
The theme of the meniscus runs through my work. Poetry operates at a linguistic interface between subjective and objective experience. To find balance between inner and outer is the thing. I wouldn’t recommend poetry as do-it-yourself psychotherapy, but having some command of technique I have at times derived artistic satisfaction, in comfort and recompense, from work which has sprung from difficult terrain in my life. Through making sense and shape of utterance to produce a creative work, it became possible for me to come to terms with the event that produced ‘The Autoclave’, namely the loss of most of my possessions in a house fire. It also served the useful function of storing some precious memories in words before they were forgotten, since their material prompts had disappeared.
From ‘The Autoclave’:
The poem goes on to interweave themes of ancestry, polarities, journeys and crossings around the central metaphor of the autoclave and the quarantine station at Point Nepean in Melbourne where the Scottish settlers arrived in the 1850s. An interface of sorts between worlds. Dante provided a useful guide in this poem.
We dream our situations in metaphor so that the waking mind can understand them at a deep level. We tend to put our precepts into poetry, fable, parable, to insert them at a deep level into the psyche.
My idea of the writing process is something like this: The dreams go round like a washing machine in one side of my brain. Through some interface they are drawn across, filter through to the active language side. At the interface sits an entity who deals with the meeting of words and ideas. A grandmother, a Joker, a Janus at the gateway between conscious and unconscious, looking both out and in, facilitating and shaping the casting of idea in language. In the active language side utterance is made precise, tested and fitted for the outside world. It slides down the arm into the pen and glides out in ink. It has a sense of humour:
I don’t see writing as a means of removing the detritus of my psyche. Poetry is useful because it can hold ideas in words, memorably, lest they slip away. Poetry is as good a way of exercising the mind as any mental activity – such as chess, maths, philosophy, physics. Among other things, poetry is metaphor.
My book Soundings begins with a couple of riddles, which look as though they’re supposed to be love poems, but they’re not, unless they’re love poems in a wider sense, love of an isolated population for each other and their island life of cliffs and waves – and seabirds. (The answer to the first riddle is in the second).
Writing poetry can be so intellectually intriguing as to become obsessional. For the poet, creative absorption in poetry is perhaps as intense as a psychotic state. But it isn’t channelling the poet’s self, it’s more of a glass bead game, abstract, of ear and eye, vocabulary and syntax. It seems to produce endorphins.
This poetry is not the psychiatric tool Fred d’Aguiar thought to use. He was encouraging a confessional mode, but the subject pursued his patient into the world and she had no shelter from it. Writing brought no relief. Personal writing can of course be used as a starting point for poetry. When the Flounder Inn burned down, writing an exhaustive list of its contents for the insurance assessor was a gloomy exercise. Then I began writing down memories so that they wouldn’t be lost with the objects that evoked them. These enticed me into poetry that went beyond the personal level. When I moved to Bluff, I found poetry a good way to come to terms with a new house, environment, family, culture, as I looked back as well as forward over my life thus far.
Looking back I see the themes of polarity and opposition early in my life, in several crossings of the equator. I was intrigued by the world’s hemispheres. Later this awareness of difference increased to include cultural dimensions. At school in England during my father’s sabbatical I was made embarrassingly aware of English ignorance about my New Zealand home. At that time, at the age of twelve, I injured my back in a ballet class, and the spinal fusion resulting 26 years later made me very interested in the process of healing, producing the poetry in Benzina in 1988.
If poetry’s a benign psychosis, do I hear voices? Yes, I hear ‘voice’ suggesting idea or theme and associated words – it’s the same as the voice that tells me my PIN number. It’s that voice I converse with when I make poetry, the inner voice that articulates ideas and speaks poetic lines. Rarely, it will produce a whole poem. Often the flow of verbal suggestion is so rapid and contradictory that it might be discerned to be many voices. Is this psychotic? I would never be without it. It’s the dimension of my mind which speaks in language, in colour, line or music. Following its creative suggestions I draw and paint and have fun with musical scores. It sings, it facilitates synesthesia. I assume it is the voice of intelligence. Poetry is creative writing but all creative writing is not poetry. By poetry I mean the ancient and demanding task of making spoken and written language which is condensed, mellifluous and memorable.
Poetry is an art practised by poets. All patients are not poets, but active participation in creative activity does stimulate healing, as laughter does.
All poets are not patients, but poetry may be akin to psychosis. How else describe the extraordinary lengths to which the mind will go in order to craft an exquisite word-vessel of idiosyncratic tone and form, a thought-experiment, a poem?
Or that intense tenacious worrying among words, obsession with exactitude, with melody, with rhythm, a juggling of possible meanings and short cuts through byways of syntax, that uses to the full the layers of meaning and music arising from elegant verbal combination.
The poet is both passive channel and active shaper of the flow. I imagine that in real psychosis this balance wouldn’t be found. If the shaping side were passive, the active psychosis could predominate. By the ‘shaping side’ I mean the self-engendered disciplines of careful work.
The poems quoted are from Markings (2000), Axis (2001), Soundings (2002), Fire-penny (2005); all published by University of Otago Press, PO Box 56, Dunedin.
D’Aguiar’s essay ‘Poetry and Madness’ appeared in Fulcrum: An Annual of Poetry and Aesthetics 3 (2004), ed. Nikolayev and Kapovich.